Wow, it's about time i pay xanga a visit. It's definitely been quite awhileeee. Since last time blogged, there have been a couple changes, but pretty big ones i suppose.

well well well, time for updationnn...
school: So I moved back home for this semester since I guess things weren't working out, but it's okay cause I've learned to adapt quite fast. now attending TCC and although it's not what I have everrrr had in mind, it doesn't bother me much. Also, going to St. Ignatius daily just to better some of my learning skills but that's not too big a problem. I'm actually grateful they want me there and are willing to help me. It's nice to know people care. All in all, some things have changed, but then again some things haven't. Daily dosages of some family members may bother me at times, but I learn to cope with it cause I figured things aren't going to change much when pertaining to them. Well, living back at home isn't too big a pain in the butt, but at times, I wish I were back at the apartment, but I guess overall it's not bad. Everything is readily available at home, and in ways, I do better down here than I did up there. Who knows what's happening with my schooling, but I'm taking it a little at a time. We'll see how things work out for me. I'm just hoping for the best
family:...definitely feel out of the loop. I don't find myself exactly close to anyone anymore except for two..but the two were not the same two from a long time ago and that bothers me.  I truly truly miss how all of us were right after that Touch My Heart retreat. We were seriously inseparable. I learned so much from family then and actually found myself loving them. ...somewhere in that cloud, all of us got lost and basically went our own ways. Cliques are now easily found, and that's not how things are supposed to be. Some things actually irritate me a lot. I find hypocrisy&many other elements that get me up to the neck. I hate it, but what the hell am I supposed to do...so like many times before, I just eat it and keep it to myself or vent to someone about it if I can't contain it. It just still deeply hurts me even though I manage to hold my smile for a little longer each and every time. As for immediate family, the sister isn't living at home and that suckssss.
friends: I miss having my best friend around. It use to be our daily routine to write notes to each other, and now that's no more. Anddd she seldomly comes home so, but that's okay. We still keep in contact and talk to each other pretty often. Still close. The mister, I definitely miss him. Hardly see the guy yet we chat it up a good amount of times. I miss our set dates to just talk and I'm looking forward to our next one. You're a good friend, and I'm glad to have learned that you landed that job you've been wanting! Soooo entirely happy for you. Hope all will be going well for you, you definitely deserve it! Looking forward to date number 3...or is it 4? haha ....a couple friends call me at random times, or will text me randomly and I love receiving those cause it comes to show they still care to see how I'm doing. Though we're not as close as before, it's still nice to know you still have them there in your life no matter how miniscule it may seem. As for another person. Some people say we have a love/hate relationship and I guess I'd have to concur with that. I don't know what it is but you easily get me worked up, but then again I am really comfortable with you and can find myself laughing up a storm with you. It's just minor things that still bother me, but I'm learning to deal with it. Meh, touchy subject. Don't feel like writing anymore about the person. I truly miss how we used to be, trust me. It makes me cry each time I think of how we used to be and how we are now. We're close as hell, yet we're not so close. We're kinda torn and it killssssss the shit out of me. Believe me.....

i'll just end this here...i can no longer think

TAYLOR SWIFT:)